28 November 2011

a case of senioritis

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If you don’t already know what senioritis is, let me give you a brief explanation. It usually occurs in the last year of high school, college, or graduate school. It is a decreased motivation towards studies and often includes procrastination and sometimes a drop in academic studies. It has to do with the urge to be finished with the last year in that particular education level and is usually a result from a bad transition period. Sometimes the term ‘senioritis’ is used in a joking manner, but it’s actually really serious.

I have senioritis.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m thankful to have the privilege to go to college and get an education. Really, I am. But after consecutive semesters of working hard, it has started wearing down on me. I’m majoring in accounting, which has proved to be a much more difficult subject than I expected. The further into it I get, the less ‘fun’ it becomes (if it ever really was that to begin with, maybe it was just easy at first). Adding to the difficulty is the type of professors that I have dealt with. I’m not sure what it is about college professors, but something seems to go to their head. They seem to think that every student in their class cares more about that particular class than any other.

Exams and projects all hit at the same time. I recently had two weeks full, in which every day that I attend class consisted of an exam in at least one of the subjects. Maybe that doesn’t seem like a big deal, but it is. Especially when the difficulty level of the exams require hours of studying and preparation. It’s hard to cram all of that into one day and still make time to eat, sleep, and actually get to talk to my husband. The absence of free time really bothers me. I remember one day thinking, I just wish I had even a couple free minutes to do something as simple as painting my nails. I either attend class all day, or I work all day. Then, whenever I get home, I continue working on homework, projects, and studying. It’s like it never ends. There’s never a break. And in the end I start feeling like the professors don’t even care about their students anymore. I probably try to put the blame on more things than I should. The real truth is that the problem is me and the level of extremity with which I want to be finished with college, degree in hand.

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I have had so many friends and family members try to be encouraging to me. I know they mean well. But it isn’t always encouragement for me, but it’s no fault of theirs because they don’t understand what I’m going through. The most common phrase of encouragement that I have gotten has been, “It’s almost over,” because they know I will be graduating in May 2012. Well, I will admit that it is almost over. However, ‘almost’ doesn’t help me. I don’t want it to be over next semester, I don’t want it to be over next week, I don’t want it to be over tomorrow. I want to drop everything right this second and be done with it. That’s how I know I have senioritis. That’s how I know this is serious.

But I am so thankful that I have a husband that is willing to put up with me through all of this. He ends up being the one to cook dinner so may nights. He stays up with me as late as I need to in order to get my studying done. Before every exam or presentation, he tells me I can do it and that everything is going to be ok. And best of all, he puts up with my tears whenever I breakdown in the middle of studying for an exam. And he prays for me.

Which brings me to the next thing. I am so thankful to have a God that is in control. A God that knows the plans he has for me, and knows me better than I could ever know myself. I’m thankful that he says, “Child, give me your worries, because I can handle them,” because he knows that I can’t. As long as I stay close to him, turn to him with my worries and fears, and trust in him, what can go wrong? Nothing. He is in control and he is going to make it so that things happen just as they should. His plan is perfect.

"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11 (NLT)

But whoever listens to me will live in safety and be at ease, without fear of harm. Proverbs 1:33 (NIV)

May he grant your heart's desires and make all your plans succeed. Psalm 20:4 (NLT)

Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26 (NIV)

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I hope that you can possibly find some encouragement in this. I know I already feel better just opening up and sharing all of this. If you have anything that has been on your heart lately that you want to share, please leave it or link to it in the comments so we can all share with each other and be encouraging. And please let me know if there is anything I can pray for you about. {you can email me at jessicadtingle at gmail dot com}

5 comments:

  1. First and foremost, AMEN to senioritis. I think I was diagnosed around ... sophomore year? Totally understand the 'it's almost over' statement. I cannot wait to say 'it's OVER' plain and simple and never look back. We just got back from our short (and, by short I mean way to short) Thanksgiving break and I'm already ready for Christmas. It seems like forever away ...

    Good Post (Very relatable)

    I'll end it with a cliche saying: It will be okay, It is ALMOST over Jessica (and Katie).

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  2. Girl, I get this so much even though I'm a long way away from being a Senior anywhere.;) Sometimes I get life-itis. But like you said so thankful for a Father who knows every detail.

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  3. I was probably diagnosed around that time too, but I'm just now coming to terms!  I can't wait to never look back either.  Just think though, two more weeks of class (plus finals) and then we are done with our last Fall semester ever.  I'm thinking next semester I will do a post about lasts that I've accomplished. Last fall semester, last time registering for classes, last first day of class, last time buying textbooks. There's so many! :)

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  4. I'm so glad that there are people out there that 'get' this.  I can truly understand life-itis, too.  I think I have a problem with "hurry up and wait" haha.  But we have an awesome God! :)  Thanks for stopping by my blog.

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  5. you all i've diagnosed myself too after reading this post.  of course i've never been excited about school, but i decided to a response to this post here, http://in-every-which-way-mackenzie.blogspot.com/2011/11/response-to-senioritis.html, on my blog!  but i can totally relate!  i love you jessica!! lol :)

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